What if we had no more tomorrows, no more time to procrastinate, no more time to waste, no more one days or some days, just no more. I don’t know about anyone else but if I counted all the wasted minutes, hours, days, weeks in my life it would be a sad, sad existence. I know I have spent a good amount of clicks of the clock on the computer just piddling time away, playing just one more game or searching for just one more inconsequential thing. I waste my time and then complain that I don’t have enough of it……kinda sounds silly when said aloud or put in writing. I make excuses for it too, well, it’s not like I have any earth shattering talents to show the world or any major masterpiece to finish before the unveiling so it is really a draw how I spend my time….
But, what if there was no more time? Have I done what I was put on this earth to do or did I just waste it all away, my existence as inconsequential as the last game of solitaire played. Did I reach anyone, did I touch anyone, did I do anything that made a difference or even mattered. These are hard questions when spoken as a monologue or even a dialogue. Did I live the best life I could, not the perfect life but the life that God intended me to live. Did I imitate and honor His Son to the best of my ability or did I look the other way more often than not. I think everyone wants to live the life that really mattered, I am not talking about fancy clothes and flawless looks, I am talking about really doing what was planted in their heart so long ago by the Creator. I have no idea where my journey might lead or even what path I am on or if I am making my own path, a path never ventured, a path unique to my footsteps. Will the steps be small or will they be leaps, will they be straight and narrow or will they dance to my own rhythm? I think these questions can best be answered after, in the calm of the last footstep. We can say we will follow our own path but I don’t think we really know if it was a ground breaking journey or if time had weathered away the footprints of someone long ago.
I don’t think it is important if we are making a fresh path in the world, I do think it is important that time is being used wisely. Are we using time to reach out, to help out, to listen, to reach for our dreams. I do not have a mind blowing educational resume. I have one high school diploma from a time when it was cool to use aerosol hair spray and a hair dryer to position your hair just the way you wanted, usually a good 3 inches from your scalp, needless to say, that diploma isn’t going to get me anywhere in this world, nada, nowhere, zilch. I went to a few colleges, took a few classes and then departed with nothing to show, my parents must be so proud. I have worked since I was 14 so working isn’t new to me, but doing something I love and making some money doing it would be a new threshold. I have the support and encouragement of a number of good friends and family and that may be all I need and of course God’s good graces and blessing me with something I don’t deserve. This year is half over and so far I have written more in these past six months than I ever have and have thoroughly enjoyed it! My journey, my dream, my passions are helping others and writing, I do believe we each have at least two passions, both fulfill your heart but one is just a bit more selfish than the other.
What is your passion? What were you put on this earth to do? And are you doing it?
